By – March 4, 2024

Lihi Lapid’s nov­el, On Her Own, is a sto­ry of daugh­ters, moth­ers, and grand­moth­ers. Nina, the novel’s teenage pro­tag­o­nist, has run away from home fol­low­ing an argu­ment with her moth­er over a long-held dis­pute about Nina dat­ing an old­er man. On her first night with this old­er man, she wit­ness­es his involve­ment in a mur­der. She runs from him into the arms of Carmela, a woman whose old­er son has died and whose younger son has moved from Israel to the US with his wife and chil­dren. Carmela, who’s los­ing her mem­o­ry and her abil­i­ty to think clear­ly, mis­tak­en­ly believes that Nina, whom she dis­cov­ered in the hall­way of her build­ing, is her grand­daugh­ter, Dana. Tak­ing on this new iden­ti­ty of Dana, Nina devel­ops a rela­tion­ship with Carmela as she seeks shel­ter from oth­er parts of her life.

On Her Own cycles through dif­fer­ent per­spec­tives, fol­low­ing char­ac­ters and their var­i­ous rela­tion­ships. Expect­ed­ly, there’re pas­sages from Carmela’s and Nina’s per­spec­tives, but a sig­nif­i­cant por­tion of the book focus­es on Iri­na, Nina’s moth­er, an immi­grant from Rus­sia who feels that she’s nev­er been able to offer Nina the life that she want­ed for her. As the nov­el moves between points of view, the read­er gets an in-depth sense of each gen­er­a­tion in the matri­lin­eal line — how, despite the heartache they cause by diverg­ing from each other’s expec­ta­tions, their com­mit­ment to the oth­er always ris­es to the sur­face. In that way, the nov­el is deeply mov­ing, suf­fused with a love that’s stronger than appar­ent betrayal.

Lapid homes in on the con­flicts that can come with an immi­grant par­ent rais­ing a child who was born in the coun­try to which that par­ent has immi­grat­ed. Where­as Iri­na moved to Israel from Rus­sia, and thus lives in a social class below the native-born Israelis, Nina was born in Israel and holds desires that rub up against her mother’s. Ita­mar, Carmela’s son, moved to the US and now feels out of place — he’s one of the few Israelis in his neigh­bor­hood, and he has dif­fi­cul­ty bridg­ing the phys­i­cal and cul­tur­al gap between his moth­er and him­self. Ita­mar feels this divide in the oppo­site direc­tion, too, with his daugh­ter, the real” Dana, who rejects Itamar’s Israeli her­itage and demands he not speak Hebrew to her. In all instances, the par­ents val­ue their native cul­ture; and in try­ing to pass it along — or, from the children’s per­spec­tive, impose it — they meet resis­tance that is both mad­den­ing and deeply understandable.

On Her Owns plot is propul­sive: there’s always the threat that Nina will be found by the old­er man she dat­ed, or that Carmela and oth­ers will learn that Nina is not in fact her grand­daugh­ter. The pres­sure that Nina is under grows even greater as the read­er dis­cov­ers how the sto­ry unfolds on all sides. How­ev­er, as a result of these shifts in point of view, cer­tain rela­tion­ships feel as though they get rushed, lim­it­ing the amount of inti­ma­cy that can be cre­at­ed. But this sense of being rushed appears only in the lat­ter half of the book, when the plot accel­er­ates toward its conclusion.

From start to fin­ish, On Her Own is an engag­ing, illu­mi­nat­ing sto­ry of fam­i­ly and injury. It exam­ines grief, the fal­lac­i­es of wish­ful think­ing, and per­sis­tent hope in a way that many read­ers will find memorable.

Ben­jamin Selesnick is a psy­chother­a­pist in New Jer­sey. His writ­ing has appeared in Bare­ly South ReviewLunch Tick­etTel Aviv Review of Books, and oth­er pub­li­ca­tions. He holds an MFA in fic­tion from Rut­gers University-Newark.

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Miller Fam­i­ly Book Club Award in Mem­o­ry of Helen Dunn Wein­stein and June Keit Miller

On Her Own, a cap­ti­vat­ing and thrilling nov­el, delves into intri­cate rela­tion­ships between moth­ers and their chil­dren. Author Lihi Lapid paints a vivid pic­ture of immi­grant fam­i­lies resid­ing in Israel, the bur­dens of moth­ers in a soci­ety that demands the ulti­mate sac­ri­fice from their chil­dren, and the emo­tion­al tur­moil expe­ri­enced by Israeli expats liv­ing in the diaspora.

The sto­ry begins with Nina, a teenag­er who has fled her home to take up with an old­er mar­ried man, awak­en­ing in a stair­well of an apart­ment build­ing after being sex­u­al­ly assault­ed and wit­ness­ing a mur­der. Carmela, an elder­ly wid­ow grap­pling with demen­tia, stum­bles upon Nina and mis­tak­en­ly believes her to be her grand­daugh­ter, Dana, who lives in Amer­i­ca. Dri­ven by des­per­a­tion for a safe haven, Nina pre­tends to be Carmela’s granddaughter.

The nar­ra­tive unfolds through the per­spec­tives of the prin­ci­pal char­ac­ters, each grap­pling with their own unique strug­gles: Nina, exploit­ed as a sex object; Carmela, haunt­ed by the loss of her eldest son years ago in the war in Lebanon; Iri­na, Nina’s devot­ed moth­er, a Ukrain­ian immi­grant work­ing two jobs to to make a bet­ter life for her daugh­ter; and Ita­mar, Carmela’s son and Dana’s father, who left Israel with his fmi­ly to work for a year in the US, but has stayed for six years with­out return­ing once.

As the sto­ry weaves togeth­er the thoughts and emo­tions of these char­ac­ters, we wit­ness the intri­cate tapes­try of ten­sion and guilt that binds gen­er­a­tions. On Her Own is an excep­tion­al book that will be hard to put down, and one you will want to share, and dis­cuss, with oth­ers. In short, a per­fect choice for a book club. 

The Hebrew Fic­tion in Trans­la­tion Jane Weitz­man Award

Lihi Lapid is a mas­ter­ful sto­ry­teller. On Her Own is a beau­ti­ful­ly writ­ten sto­ry of two fam­i­lies in Israel whose lives would not ordi­nar­i­ly inter­sect. The author’s insight into the cracks of the veneer of the immi­grants’ lives pulls on our hearts. She mas­ter­ful­ly weaves issues like elder aban­don­ment and the exo­dus of Israeli fam­i­lies to Amer­i­ca into the sto­ry. The out­come is an engag­ing read with mem­o­rable char­ac­ters who will stay with you long after you close the book.